The First Inventory of my Adulthood

My name is Anna.
I am 27 years old.

I am a daughter, a wife, a sister, an aunt, a cousin, a friend...
and a Human Resources professional.

I am anxious a lot of the time.
But I'm getting help with that.

I like to plan things.
Especially in groups.

I like myself almost all of the time.
But I don't always like what I do.

I especially don't like my job.
The people there make me sad.

I never thought that I would have a desk job.
Or that I would be good at it.

I have a wonderful husband who spoils me outragously.
We want to have a baby soooo much.

We have a whole family of stuffies.
We have puppies, bears, lions, a ducky, a monkey, a stegosaurus, a moose and a Murffles.
...plus some friends from the 100 Acre Woods & Care-a-Lot.

The stuffies live in Bedtown, East & West Hammockville and Couchton.
Soon some of them will move to Cribshire and Loftembourg.

I have diabetes.

I have a wonderful support team of family, friends and medical professionals.
But I don't like that I need so much support all the time.

I'm a fire snake sagittarian.
I'm not supposed to get along with my wood tiger piscean, but I've always been a rule-breaker.

I'm an Atheist who believes in the importance of faith.
I'd like to be Toaist.

It is very important to me that Sean thinks I'm good.
It is very important to me that Carla stays near.

I'm about to own a house.
And for the first time I have to really face my adulthood.

I like pink.

It is important to me to be able to support those who are close to me.
I like to be able to give back after having received so much.

It's wonderful to walk in the fresh autumn air and see the first signs of winter approach.
Winter means Christmas.

I love Christmas.

Spending time with Konni & the kids makes me smile.
I'm so fascinated by watching them grow.

It's hard to be happy sometimes.
Sometimes it's hard for me not to be happy.

I used to be a dancer.
Now dancing makes me sad.

I remember my teenage years with silent shame.
I cringe at the pain of the memories.

I hope that one day I'll be just like Glenna.
I'd like to think that I'm already on my way.

I hope that one day Charles will be just like Bob.
He's definitely already on his way.

I find inspiration and a quiet contentment in clouds and Trees.
Especially Oaks.

I am ok with being a geek now.
It took a long time to be able to say that.

I'm a good student.
It took a long time to be able to say that too.

I wish I could find a way to make Alex happy.
I know it's not my job, but it makes me sad when I can't help him.

Christmas. Christmas. Christmas.

Candle time is my favourite.
So is naptime.

I need Papah to be proud of me.
I need Daisy to put her chin & paws on me.

The world is a happier place when there are cookies and ice cream.

It's hard to go to sleep these days.
Every time I close my eyes the anxiety starts in that little spot on my chest.
I'm glad that I have a Hunny to help put me to sleep.

Foot rubbies get me through the hard times.
So does the sound of rain.

I don't like to go to the playground as much as I used to.
The swings don't fit right anymore.

I still like to go tobogganing.
Especially with hot chocolate and Jen.

I'm obsessed with cute t-shirts and cute shoes.
I especially like the sparkly ones.

I wish Mamah wasn't so tired all the time.
We have so much fun when she's rested.
But I'm glad she's not as tired as she used to be.

We both suffer from depression sometimes.

I'm getting better at meditation.
It's hard to stay calm.

I have three secrets right now.
I drove Betsy and I'm bisexual and I'm Wonder Woman.
Don't tell anyone, ok?

I like roller coasters because they don't scare me anymore.
A lot of other things still scare me though.

I'm a cyborg and a navigatrix.

Dim sum is best with Adam and Sarah.
Family functions are best when my girls are there.

Cartoons still make me laugh.
Vidjo games still make me swear.

I want a baby.
And a puppy.

Sometimes I'm scared that I'll never have either.

It used to matter that I could say things in a pretty way.
Now I just like simplicity.

My name is Anna.
And this is 2005.