With the help of my fabulous counsellor...

So I've come to a few realizations tonight.

1. I am not a knight in shining armour.
2. Those who provide support need to make sure they have enough support for themselves too (which I'm doing very well, I might add).
3. A re-definition of [the secret I'm keeping].
4. A re-definition of her family.

That's a lot to realize in one night.

It's the first one that catches that spot in my chest though.

*pauses*

I am not here to rescue them.
I do not have a trusty steed on which to whisk them all away to safety.
I cannot save anyone but myself.

But I also learned that I am here to support them.
I do have unconditional love to give.
I can make a difference in their lives.

Perhaps I'm not a knight in shining armour. But I am a cousin, a sister, and a friend. And that is enough.


And in the spirit of feeling all healingy...

The Healing Room
Sinead O'Connor

I have a universe inside me
Where I can go and spirit guides me
There I can ask oh any question
I get the answers if I listen

I have a healing room inside me
The loving healers there they feed me
They make me happy with their laughter
They kiss and tell me I'm their daughter
I'm their daughter

They say, "You have a little voice inside you
It doesn't matter who you think you may be
You're not free if you don't know me
If you don't know me

See I'm not the lie that lives outside you
And it doesn't matter what
You think you believe
You're not free if you don't know me
If you don't know me

See I am the universe inside you
You come to me and I will guide you
And make you happy with laughter
I joy in seeing you're my daughter
You're my daughter
So believe
You're not free if you don't know me
If you don't know me"